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Monday, July 09, 2007

My best friend's birthday is today. Well, here, of course. But for some of you it might be yesterday. But anyway, I would just want to greet her a very happy birthday.

She's the best. She's just one of the people who saved my life in one way or another. She's a special kid. She's my soulmate. She is my ultimate best friend.

I just wanted to tell her how much she means to me. That even if I'm far away from her, I can still kick her butt. (kidding.)

I love her so much and I miss her terribly.

(End of my cheesy message. *laughs*)

Take care always, Ceecee! And I want you to be my gift in my birthday too. :)

We all go to hell.
---6:09 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

From Sunday to Saturday, everything seems to be like a big blur. A big wonderful blur. The kind of thing I want to call the "sweet escape". The Cavite vacation wasn't the only thing that kept this incredibly long week running. The escape carries on. We went to the Pan Pacific which was quite a fun stay. It was a grand total of 3 days with only 20% of guaranteed sleep and rest. *sigh* What's the point of vacation if you have to rest anyway? Erase that last. It was a very odd and wrong logic.

Enough talking about what happened during the stay. Now I'm going to talk about how that stay was.

The stay was filled with expectations and thoughts. It wasn't just an ordinary stay for me wherein I'll relax as much as I want to and laugh my ass off with whatever crazy thing I see or whatnot. It was about reflection and realizations. I think everything I do now is pretty much a retreat session. There were thoughts. Especially now that we have settled for a date. 3 days from now, It's going to be one more month. Most probably my last here. Now all I can think off is that and how I can make the most of this last month. Anyway, I've realized a LOT of things. Not to mention half expected that everyone else realized it as well.

Here's a list: (Ohh goody!)
1. Hilary Duff named her latest album "Dignity". It was the most inappropriate title for her album.
2. Whenever you see a sexy performer, look from toe to top. It's a better way to look at them. But the best is not to look at their face.
3. Little things often lead to the big things.
4. You can't have the commutative property without the addends. The Obvious Factor.
5. Almost all things are a matter of principle.
6. Democracy has its limitations like freedom has its consequences.
7. Attention-seekers are GROs in the making. In a dancing sort of way
8. Number 7 is harsh but true.
9. Light can alter anything.
10. CNN is better than Jack TV.

Those were 10 of my realizations. That list isn't even 1/4 of what I have realized. Besides realizations, I noticed that ambitions are included. I thought of my ambitions. How could I reach them? What are my ambitions in the first place? But one thing's for sure: Accomplished slutty ambitions lead to a bad future. Well, one ambition of mine is having a job even if I'm still young. Even if it's an irregular job like doing chores for neighbors and fetching the morning paper. Anything.

I have a hard life ahead of me. But I am sure that I will never ever regret that life.

We all go to hell.
---9:19 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Last Sunday, a short notice trip to Cavite. It was actually really fun. The province life is absolutely exciting. In fact, I want to go back [or probably live there forever. :))].

But there are still afternoons. Those aftrernoons I sort of think of things like "Am I really here or am I just dreaming?". I guess it was sort of a recollection/retreat thing, like what my mother said about life without cable or TV. The more I think about the fact that I'm leaving, the more I feel it approach swiftly. I think I'm all set. But for my mother, I don't think so.

Do you still remember what you usually sang in karaoke nights? I do. I did two unforgettable songs last night: Bohemian Rhapsody and Smells like Teen Spirit. Note to Self: If I will ever sing Bohemian Rhapsody in Karaoke, I have to be really drunk or really high. The last part of Bohemian Rhapsody is absolutely crazy [not to mention overly challenging].

Long Island Iced Tea is love! Though I'm "not" allowed to drink the alcoholic drink, I still drank a whole glass in front of my mother. Imagine that. It was a fun night. Met really great people!

Shoot! Nirvana is so great! I love 'em!

We all go to hell.
---7:51 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Whoops. I stumbled upon the fact that I haven't updated this blog much. There's probably two reasons I can think of: 1) business of being bored and 2) I'm a lazyass. Given the second reason, I guess I shouldn't be "not lazy" enough to post here but due to reason number 1, I'm going to post. Crazy, isn't it?

So the title of this quaint post is "Counting down the days to go.". Well, I guess some people who are reading this absolutely know what I'm talking about. I checked the calendar and there's one month to go. Mom started to talk about the things we're [especially me] suppose to do there. I'm still young but I'm going to "irregular" work. Going to babysit, babysit! Isn't it fun? When I get 17 or 18, I'd immediately find a job and work. New adventures *ehem* and misadventures *ehem*!

I know it's going to be fun.

It's the perfect escape from severe pollution, severe corruption and purely severe stuff.

We all go to hell.
---12:25 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

So what did I expect today? I expected my mother doing her crazy deeds. She did one just a while ago. I was watching Myx and Famous Last Words was on. She started dancing in front of me. Why am I not surprised? So, I asked her what the hell was she doing. She answered it simply and without hesitation: EXERCISE. Yeah sure, mom, in the afternoon. AFTER YOU HAVE TAKEN A BATH. She actually expected me to believe that crap.

My point exactly? Well, sometimes I react the same way as my mom did. I mean, you're doing something crazy then someone was taping you the whole time you were doing it. What's the logical approach? Find a loophole. Tell them it's an old ritual you do before you eat spaghetti. But that would be equally bizzare. You get the point.

I read a line from one of my favorite books: Angels and Demons. Lieutenant Chartrand was in the Niche of Palliums, if I'm not mistaken. The room contained 99 candles that cardinals assume will "last until the end of time". Basically, they put chemicals in the candles to make them last long. They do this ritual everyday. Surprisingly, Chartrand didn't know that the candles have a daily dose of Butane. His fellow Swiss Guards told him the line that struck me most in the book. "Smells like heaven, but burns like hell."

Funny, you can make a million or two analogies with this line. For example, you fell in love with the most beautiful girl in the universe. Right after you two were married, you realize that she's not just the most beautiful girl in the world but she's also the biggest pain in the butt. Smells like heaven, burns like hell.

We all go to hell.
---3:54 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

I sort of have a big problem now. I'm facing a big transition in my life. A transition, I fear, I might not be able to face well. I'm quite scared. The grades are coming. May's fast approaching. I can't take things anymore. And yes, Celina, I'll tell you everything when we go to Baguio.

Now, my back's aching. I'm chatting with Ain about... STUFF. Namely, how to stop time to get to the MCR video shoot, destroying watches using telepathy, a strategic kidnapping and fucking mainstream riders.

It's Sunday afternoon. I should be having the time of my life in solitary boredom. Oh well, this is probably the summer life with nothing to do. How can I kill time? Probably make those ambigrams. No, I'd die before I finish that.

Maybe I should die of laughter? That's a pretty happy way to die. With no drugs, weapons or heart attacks included.

I'm sure you have no idea what I'm saying. I haven't either.

[We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.]

We all go to hell.
---12:23 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

So yeah, getting over first year's quite hard. It's one of the most intense years I have ever gone through. I had my life-changing transition this year, which made everything worthwhile. I discovered things that made me strong. Things that I have to discover because I might die if I didn't. Plus, I went out of my comfort zone and decided to cut my hair short. Now, that's life-changing.

First year was how it should be.

The comeback of my insomniac days. Oh yeah, I was an insomniac last summer. Couldn't sleep well. Stayed up really late at night playing Sims 2 in my brother's PSP. I'm planning ways to get that from him since he already has his PS2. Who knew that my maid there is a ghost who haunted my house since 1923? And that shocking [electrifying?] people that I hate may help me lose my sanity? Sims is the best "reality-based" game in the world. Except maybe for the zombies and night beast part.

I stay up all night dreaming. Which is quite weird. At least I can choose what to dream, right?

I'm drowning myself. Reading Angels and Demons are not for the weak-minded [and the green-minded as well.]. I mean, there's the Illuminati, which continues to amaze me with their brutal ways against the Catholic Church. About antimatter that supports the Big Bang Theory and that science and religion should be best friends. The Freemasons and CERN which contains the best inventions in the world.

Whoa.

[Thanks Celina for doing my layout.]

We all go to hell.
---3:14 AM